do you always have the feeling that someone is judging your every move?
i dont know why, but i get this feeling at times. most of the time to be honest.
IT'S SCARY and pressurising to an extent.
and you'd start thinking: oh nooo, what if i do something wrong?
and you go: SHITTTT LAAAAA.

but then again, actually why should you care that someone's judging your every move? hey, it's okay to make mistakes you know (: thinking that it's okay to make mistakes, gives me the confidence and makes me feel happy over again. make mistakes, learn from it, become a better person.

HAHA. randomness. but Bertha asked if i'm able to substitute Guo Zhong teaching evac to a bunch of teachers for UOP =/ the thought of teaching a bunch of people who's older than me makes me shudder. they are teachers okay. and okay, my evacuation skills are rather rusty. and it's been a long time since i've done push ups. but i guess it's worth a try. it would be lame to say, hey im scared and dont think I want to do it. challenge myself. we'll see how it goes lah. oh yeah, poor guo zhong has hand foot mouth disease. -shakes head. break record. 17 years old still can get. but oh well, get well soon!

did you know that i lack so much self-confidence? now you do.

I'm trying newer stuff each and every day. stuff which i never thought i'd do.
it's a little scary but i guess the sense of achievement you'd feel after completing the thing is priceless. so hey everyone, GO TRY SOMETHING NEW (:

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! and im happy today. YAY. cause now fadilah is coming with me for the bay ambassador thing. i wont be lonely no moreeee!!! -grins with joy

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PAU!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BIG BRO!

was supposed to celebrate my brother's birthday today but he's coming home late from NS today. soooo, no birthday celebration. so sad. to think of it, i kind of miss my brother. actually i just miss his brains. at least when he was here, i can bombard him with so many questions and he'd crack his brains trying to solve them. now, if i can't answer a question, i'd have no one to ask. and then i'd just leave it aside. then forget about it. then exam will come out that question.
-__________-'' RAHHH.

shall finish up reading my gases notes and then read evac then sleep. siannn.